Fears

We all have fears.  Some silly and some serious.  We faced some today as a family and it makes me laugh a little.  A fear I have is of dying before my kids are raised.  I'm not scared of dying but rather them not knowing me and the legacy they are a part of on the Leet side so for FHE tonight we had a family history lesson and Neil and I told stories about ourselves, our likes, dislikes, stories from our childhood and also let the kids ask questions.  It was so fun and made me think there is so much stuff I don't know about my own parents.  So get ready because if we have the chance to come to Georgia this summer we need to have some story telling FHEs to get to know Nana and Poppa and their parents and on and on.  We also need to do this with Kim and Linda when their lives slow down a little bit too.  It was a lot of fun and a lot of laughs and testimonies born tonight.  I can see many more of these times in our future.

Even though I love 9 o'clock church it was really hard on Eliza.  She only got one nap yesterday and because we were at Sam's school this morning she only got one nap today so after I picked the boys up this afternoon I was finally able to lay her down at 4 o'clock.  We didn't hear a peep from her all day and night and didn't think much of it until at 10 o'clock when we're getting ready for bed and she has still not woken up or made a peep.  That's when the fear hit me and I asked Neil what if she has died kind of joking and then my heart stopped because it could be true.  She was wearing a zipped up jacket and what if it had gotten too tight and suffocated her.  We both went upstairs to listen and nothing.  I could not open the door so Neil finally did.  He checked on her and said she was breathing but I had to see for myself and I couldn't tell but she finally rolled over and I could breath again.  I woke her up and gave her a bottle and she went right back down.  I hope she sleeps tonight so we can sleep.

Lucy has been scared for a couple months now about fire and every so often will have a hard time falling to sleep.  Well tonight was the worst.  Oh my goodess.  She was so tired and out of the blue she just starts bawling uncontrollably and when she gets like this you really can't understand her.  Mikey was trying to reason with her but that wasn't working and I couldn't understand her.  All I got out of it was something about her bed and ponies.  My poor sweet little Lu, I pray you are always safe from fire.