Baby #5 is Only One Month Away

I seriously can't believe I only have one month to go.  This pregnancy has really just flown by and I am so thankful.  It still feels surreal.  I can't believe we are having another child.  I think a lot of it has to do with we aren't finding out what we are having.  We don't really care if it's a boy or a girl.  We've got one of each so it's no big deal.  A boy would be easier but than I would love for Lucy to have a sister.  I guess we'll find out in one more month.  Lucy is the most excited about this baby.  She always runs up and gives my tummy  a hug and talks to it in a creepy gremlin voice.  Mikey the other day asked to see my tummy and then exclaime, whoa it is huge.  Yep it is.  I'm the biggest I've ever been with any of them.  It's been my easiest pregnancy yet so I can't complain.  Absolutely no nausea, no cravings or aversions just tired which is the story of my life.  I just recently started having a sore stomach but that's it.  I honestly feel guilty that it's been so easy.  At my doctor's you get an ultrasound every visit and the last two visits he's pointed out the hair on the head.  That is so exciting.  We've yet to have a baby born with any hair.  I'm hoping it's dark.  It's a good thing we haven't found out what we're having because I would be on a spending spree which doesn't need to happen.  Conner came a month early and so I told Neil I have to have everything ready the first week of March and so I have.  I've sewn some bassinet sheets because I can't find them.  I've washed some of the boy and girls clothes so we'll be ready for whatever arrives.  The carseat and swing are washed and ready to go.  I was hoping all this nesting would make it seem real but it still hasn't.  I ordered the book Safe Haven to read while in the hospital.  I've heard it's one you can' t put down and that's what I'll need because I hate being in the hospital and never sleep.  I'm going to have to have Neil hide it so I don't start reading beforehand.

I know this baby is probably going to be the biggest adjustment for our family.  We are completely out of the baby stage and watching Heather with Savannah when they were here reminded me of how much feeding, changing, holding you have to do.  I don't know if I'm ready for it.  It's been so nice to get the sleep we need and be able to tell the kids to get in the car and they are in it and ready to go in a minute or two.  Hopefully it won't be as bad as I'm expecting.

After a hard day, Neil and I will look at each other and ask what are we thinking having another child but we both know it is meant to be.  This baby is so special to us.  It took 3 miscarriages before we got it.  I received the confirmation it was time to have another child and we immediately got pregnant with this one.  I would not have anoher child if I did not receive that witness from the Holy Ghost.  The Lord knows what Neil and I can handle even when we don't and we have to have His consent.  This gives me a lot of confidence.