Oh what it would be like to be four again. Today is January 3rd, and Eliza insisted on wearing one of her Christmas outfits today because she just loves Christmas and wants it to always be Christmas. I agree. She is such a happy girl always skipping wherever she goes or twirling around. She loves family and it is so important to her. If asked what she wants to be when she grows up it's always a mom. Whenever she does her chores she'll exclaim, "I made my bed! That's going to help me be a good mom". Her second choice would be a pet walker. She gets so excited when she thinks about growing up and getting married and having kids. She really wants to marry her brother Conner because he is nice to her and is so handsome. She worries about Neil and I and what we're going to do when all the kids grow up and thinks we should have more. She gets sad when we talk about kids getting older and leaving home. Her desire to be a good mom really has an impact on me. I'm more aware of the example I'm setting for her and hoping it's a good, positive and realistic one.
Today Eliza went to an ENT and this was the patient chair. After examining it she said that it was a difficult chair. I didn't understand her choice of words and explained what difficult meant and said I think she's thinking of a different word. Nope it's a difficult chair.
We were at the ENT because we've been to two Audiologists who said she has mild/moderate hearing loss and would benefit from hearing aids. The ENT was going to check her tonsils and ears and make sure that wasn't the problem. Everything looks good and so he sent me to another audiologist who confirmed the hearing loss. Now to decide what to do. Do we get hearing aids for a 4 year old? They average $3600 a pair and luckily our insurance will pay part of the cost every 3 years. I've never thought she couldn't hear but we all speak loud at home because I can't hear. The dilemma is when she starts school next year and no longer has the one on one attention she gets at home. How much will she miss out on and have to guess? I know what it is like to miss out. I miss out a lot and often just tune out because I don't hear what's being said. My hearing holds me back from being more social because it's so hard and frustrating to feel clueless in a conversation. I hate talking on the phone, largely because it's hard for me to hear. Eliza is very outgoing and talkative and it saddens me to think her personality could be dampened because of her hearing. The main reason I question whether we should get them now or not is they are so expensive to replace. I will be paranoid about losing them or them getting wet during water activities. Decisions, decisions.
Eliza comes home from school saying, "I can't see very well". First her ears and now her eyes.
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